I finally did it!

I finally did it!This is all totally true. It's not a fantasy, at least not any more.After years of jerking and ass play to t-girl porn, nurturing a fascination with cock, an xhamster user asked if would be interested in meeting. I replied, No, because at the time I truly wasn't interested in being with a guy. But it got me thinking... "Does it really matter if the person I'm with has tits or not, If they are feminine or masculine? How bad could it be? A cock is a cock, right?" After a few days I realized I was a little turned on by the attention. So I uploaded a profile photo in the hopes of getting more.It certainly worked. I started getting more friend requests and pm's, mostly from guys, which was a little disappointing at first. My fantasy involved me getting plowed by a tranny, not a dude. Never the less it still got me hot and bothered, and I kept coming back to the question of how much appearance matters. Then another hamsterite asked if I did any cross dressing... I was almost insulted, but I realized it was just an innocent question, so I answered honestly - "No, and I have no interest in starting." This just fueled the fire growing within me. My confidence in my own sexuality was being shaken. Through my teens and early twenties it was clear to me what I wanted - PUSSY. No interest in men, the only dick I cared about was my own. I didn't even like to see guys in the porn I watched. Then I met a chick with a bit of a kinky side. Thanks to the internet I've seen plenty of fucked up things, (who here hasn't?) so I wasn't surprised by some of the requests she made and I did my best to accommodate. Mostly light bdsm, she wanted to be dominated, roughed up, treated like a slut, made to serve. But I was never really comfortable with that, it felt wrong being in control of another person. However, she would occasionally get feisty, her tastes would change and she would switch and become the dom. At first I wasn't sure. It was strange being controlled, but not uncomfortable. Then came my first anal experience. We started with a little enema play, followed by some fingering, and then her vibrator. I can honestly say I didn't like it... until she hit my prostate. My whole body jerked and I could feel some liquid shoot through my shaft and start dribbling out. She immediately slurped up my dick and started working the vibe hard on my prostate. I had a hard time staying still,. It hurt and brought extacy at the same time. The feeling of cum uncontrollably welling up from within overwhelmed me. We did this a few times during our relationship and I loved every time, but it always left me feeling a little dirty afterward, like I had betrayed my manhood. After we broke up I convinced myself that it was totally hetero because I was doing it with a chick so my masculinity was intact.Not long after that my curiosity started nagging at me and I started checking out strap-on and shemale porn. The stunning and convincing beauty of some of the gurls was absolutely fascinating, and surprisingly, turned me on. Eventually I started doing anal play on my own, stretching wider, deeper, watching videos of big dick chicks go to town on guys asses. I began to think, maybe I should re-evaluate my sexual orientation. After much soul searching and a lot of porn, I decided I must be Bi because I love the feminine form but I have a distinct desire to get fucked in the ass.That satisfied me, knowing who I was, For over a decade I still had no interest in men but I was willing to take a cock from a hot "woman". Until a few months ago when an xhamster user from Ca. pm'd me during a late night wank session with a friend request. I accepted and we began a lengthy pm chat about what we would do to each other. It almost bothered canlı bahis me how much I enjoyed thinking about doing things with a man, then I thought about all the messages I've gotten from guys who want to fuck, all the missed opportunities. I also thought about the cross dressing question.A couple of weeks later a local xhamster member asked me if I had ever been to a glory hole. I was a little shocked, It had never occurred to me that there were any around. I responded no, and asked if he new of any in our area, he told me about one closer to him that he regularly attends. It is a bit out of my way so I didn't give it much more thought. While looking through his favorite vids I found a sissy trainer. I wasn't sure what I was seeing but it made my dick throb. I started watching more cd vids and searching for sissy trainers, absorbing as much cock and cum imagery as I could find. One night I stayed up until sunrise jerking off with a dildo in my ass, eventually using a pump and a cock ring to try and stay hard. But no matter how many times I came I still didn't feel satisfied.With all of these thoughts of cocks, and cum, cross dressers, and glory holes, it's been hard to concentrate on things. I look at men differently, every public bathroom draws my attention. My mind is increasingly consumed by these things. I decided I need a release, to seek out what I desire.Today I took the day off from work and slept in. I woke up massaging a raging hard-on that needed some attention, so I logged in and selected my favorite trainer - Total Cum Devotion by jlodalisque - and started jerking. The video is over 16 minutes long, I rarely make it all the way through. This morning was no different. I came after about 5 minutes while pondering whether or not the video booths at a local sex shop have any holes to be exploited. After a late breakfast / early lunch, I was bored, trying to decide what to do. I could play a little GTA, do some chores, jerk off again, or ... investigate some video booths. I took a shower, brushed my teeth and off I went to discover my fate. When I left the house I was so nervous, every nerve was on end, and my heart was palpitating, but as i grew closer to my destination I started to calm down. I convinced myself that this place was respectable and wouldn't allow that sort of shenanigans. As I walked through the door it hit me again. It felt like the bottom had dropped out of the room, my head was swimming and my heart would have given a drum and bass DJ a run for his money. Why was I so nervous? I had been in this place dozens of times buying dildos. I walked up to the counter with money for tokens, my hand trembling with anticipation, the clerk recognized me and said "Hi sweety, how are you today?" I smiled and said "I'm fine." as I slid the money on the counter. I asked for tokens and she kind of slumped her shoulders as if to say "shame on you". She gave me the tokens and said "Enjoy" as I walked to the back unsure of what I would find.I turned the corner to find a small dark maze of booths. Plenty of doors to choose from, some open some closed, some guys aimlessly milling around, the musk of cum filled the air. I picked one and entered, locked the door behind me and started searching for the token slot, but I never found it. What I found was exactly what I had hoped to find ... a glorious hole connecting to the neighboring booth. My heart skipped when I saw movement on the other side. Could this be true, is this really happening? I sat down on the bench and took a deep breath as I slipped two fingers through the hole. To my delight I felt his touch and without hesitating got down on my knees and whispered "You want a blowjob?" After a moments hesitation he said yes and stood bahis siteleri up. I kept my mouth close to the hole, waiting as he pulled his cock out and slipped it through. I parted my lips and stuck my tongue out a little to accept his meat. At first I thought he was feeding me one of those "real skin" dildos, I was having trouble believing I was sucking a real dick, but when I squeezed the base and the head plumped up I could tell it was real, so I shoved my head as far down on his cock as I could. I could feel his head touching my uvula, tickling my gag reflex, but I still wasn't all the way down. I pushed harder, sticking out my tongue as if to lick his balls and I started to gag so I pulled off to catch my breath and try to get a look at this magnificent prize I was devouring but the room was too dark. Just as I was about to put it back in my mouth he pulled it away and started jerking. I started whispering "I want your cum. I need your cum. Give it to me. I want it. I -" he shoved it back in my mouth and I resumed slurping at it like it was the fountain of life. Sliding my tongue up and down his shaft and around his head while I jerked it and caught my breath, and then back down until I gag, trying not to make too much noise. Then he pulled it away again and jerked it. I wondered how close he was to cumming, would he anoint me with his seed or be wasteful and spill it on the floor. I was pleased when he gave it back, I knew my work wasn't done yet but before I could really get back into it he took it away again. Suddenly he was kissing me! I almost freaked out but I went with it. He asked me to join him on his side. That caught me off guard, after a moment I stammered a meek "Yeah ... hold on a sec". I got up and exited my booth, there were even more guys standing around than when I entered. How long Had I been There? It felt like only a few minutes. I made my way to his door which was cracked open and a guy was starting to go in, I touched his shoulder and said "He's waiting for me". The guy gave me a weird look like "DOH!" and let me go by. I locked the door behind me and turned to face my benefactor. I couldn't see much, which was probably a good thing. He asked if I was collard, I told him no I just want his cum. He asked if I was married, I said no I just want his cum. Before he could ask any more questions I got down and started grabbing for his cock. As my hands found his crotch his hands started pushing my head in closer. His hot meat found its way back into my waiting mouth, and I took it like a good slut, caressing it with my tongue, massaging his balls with one hand and squeezing the base of his shaft with the other. Then he shoved my head down ALL THE WAY. I gagged again and coughed him out. He said "Shhhh, Sorry, are you ok?" I replied "Yeah it's good" and went back for more. He pulled out a few times to jerk it and shove it back in. I used those opportunities to catch my breath. On one of the breaks I asked if he wanted to fuck my ass? I could tell he wasn't prepared for that, he hesitated, so I took the initiative. I stood up and started to undo my pants, he took my shirt off and gently pinched my nipples. I grabbed his hard cock and he fondled my limp wiener while we kissed. Then he got a little forceful, he turned me around and bent me over but the booth was small and kind of restricting. I spit on my hand and smeared in on my asshole sliding a couple of fingers in to ensure coverage and pushed my ass up as best I could. He rubbed his dick against the hole and said "Damn, you are ready." It felt so nice having something back there that I'm not controlling. He pushed at my back door. I could feel he had gotten a little limp so I whipped around and sucked it a little, güvenilir bahis then re-assumed the position and he slipped right in. It was almost unreal, we both let out a little moan as he started working his fuck stick into me. After a bit he pulled out and turned me around, pushed me against the wall, held my hands above my head and started kissing me as he thrust his cock against mine which was starting to grow. Just then I could feel some fingers on my ass through the glory hole so I moved a little until they found my hole. That didn't last long though, he pushed me back to the bench and started to thrust into my ass again. The angle wasn't very good for me, I asked him to hold still and I re-adjusted with my knees on the bench. This was much better. I could stick my ass out farther and plant my face on the wall so I could reach back and spread my cheeks allowing him greater access to my tunnel. He grunted a bit as he pushed all the way in, deeper than before. He held it there while I squeezed and pushed and squeezed. I whispered "Give me that dick. Fuck my ass. Make me a little slut. I need your cock inside me." He started thrusting harder and harder, pounding my ass. "I want it. I need it. Fill me up with your hot jizz." The walls of the booth were knocking around. He pulled out and I turned to look. "Put it back in. I feel empty" He pushed in, "Yes. pound me Like a little whore". Then he pulled out again and started jerking it furiously. I pleaded with him to put it back in. "Please cum inside me. I need it. Breed my ass. I want your cum inside me. It's all I want. It's all I dream about. Please give it to me" He pushed up close and his breathing got heavy. I knew he wasn't going to cum inside but I didn't care in the moment. Then I felt the hot streams of cum land on my back as he dumped his load. He backed up to catch his breath and I asked him to feed it to me but he either ignored me or didn't hear me, so I reached around and scooped some cum from my back and licked my fingers clean. I was surprised by the taste, it was sweet, I expected salty And bitter like mine. He said "Your a hot little slut aren't you." as I retrieved more cum from my back. He started to put his dick away so I grabbed it and said "Let me clean my ass off that for you." He didn't stop me so I took His dick in my mouth again, doing my best impression of a vacuum cleaner. I sucked every last drop out of him until he pulled away. While he was cleaning up I heard noises from the neighboring booth, the one I had started in. I looked through the hole and saw movement and then another cock. I was ecstatic! I could hardly believe it, a second chance for cum. I wasted no time slurping up the new guy. I was so intent I didn't notice the first guy leave. I was considering backing up to the hole when he pulled back a little and started stroking, but he left the head poking through, so I suckled it and flicked my tongue at the tip until he erupted in my mouth. I felt the cum wash over my tongue coating my taste buds. This guys flavor was kind of salty kind of sweet, but I might have had some residual taste from the first guy. I knelt there savoring the delicious nectar I had collected as he cleaned up and left. Another guy entered the adjoining booth and I started to get my hopes up, but then I wondered how long I had been there. I couldn't tell if it had been an hour or just a few minutes. Paranoid that the clerk was going to come back and check on things I decided I had enough and I cleaned up, got dressed and left. So there it is. As of 2:30 pm sept. 4 2015 I am officially a cock sucking cum dump. I realize I probably need more loads "under my belt" to be able to make that claim, but it feels good none the less. The problem is, I'm still not satisfied. On the way home I kept thinking about that third guy, and If there could have been a fourth or fifth, but I suppose that is the nature of the b**st, you can never get enough of a good thing.